An e-mail from my friend Jen...

Just because it put a smile on my face, I thought I'd share. I mean what fun is it being obsessive if you don't have obsessive friends to share your obsessions with?

Hello my girlies!!!

Well, today is the DAY!! I woke up this morning and put on my Tim Gunn shirt and headed off the the Loreal Paris Make Up Room...(Ok really my bathroom) I realized I wear Loreal Paris Mineral MakeUp, cool! So, then applied my Target brand blush and eye make up over it, I guess I am just a practical model at heart. Ha! Then I headed over to the Tresamme Hair Salon (bathroom, again) where I sprayed on my Tresemme Shine Spray (which actually works really good) and brushed my hair. Wow, I just need to somehow install the "Bluefly. com Accessories wall" in my closet and they could film the show at my house. Tee Hee. Now I am off to the runway....ok actually my day of the terrible twos and a baby that enjoys spitting up on me....but once all is still and kids are in bed....you know it is time for the PROJECT RUNWAY FINALE!!!! Yippee! I will be watching with anticipation with the cool pillow made from my fabric from "Mood" (the fabric store the contestants use) courtesy of my friend, Nayeli who traveled all the way to NY and got it for me. So to all my friends who love project runway (but are not as nutty as me), enjoy the show tonight. For most of ya, I will have seen the show 2 hours before you, so give me a call if you can't stay up that late and I will give you the lowdown. : ) Love ya

: ) From your Project Runway Freeky Friend,
: ) Jen

P.S. Go Designer Jillian!!!

A less than crazy birth...

Should you want to make people look at you as if you are crazy...and even express it out loud...tell them you have decided to give birth to your baby in your home with a midwife. In fact I can guarantee you will hear all the "if we were'nt in the hospital...would've (really bad thing)..." and other related yet horrific stories.

I am not a sensationalist or even a vegetarian...but after multiple birthing books and extensive research, I made the unorthodox decision to give birth to my baby at home. I didn't want to be supressed and dictated by doctors in white coats as to what I was Supposed to do and I wanted my baby to enter the world surrounded by people who loved him/her. So needless to say, I gave birth to my baby in the privacy and comfor of my own home.

So call me "crazy" for forgoing the epidural and doctors and monitors and hospital gowns...

Without drugs.

Without Doctors.

Without monitors.

But...

I had candles, and Miles Davis and a warm and comfortable birthing tub and my supportive husband and two midwives who knew me well and respected me and my body's ability to give birth without intervention and drugs. And now the amazing memory of bringing my daughter into this world peacefully and gently, surrounded by love...

I cannot imagine anything less 'crazy'...

Things I have not been able to do since becoming a mama...

Sleep.
Eat a meal sitting down.
Repond to e-mails.
Go to lunch.
Get a pedicure.
Shop.
Watch a television show.
Make a social phone call.
Have a stimulating conversation.
Get a Thai masssage.
Post on my blog.

Any regrets?

Not one.

Once upon a time...

I had a blog.
And I wrote posts. And I read posts. And I even commented. And then…well then life kicked into full speed ahead gear and reality took over posting and reading and commenting and well, where do I begin except just diving in by sharing that this last year which has included moving out of my groovy-stylish-bohemian apartment to a house that is near my father and mother-in-law who was diagnosed to cancer, losing my wonderful mother-in-law to cancer just before giving birth to my own beautiful daughter in my own home with the assistance of my husband and an amazing midwife. It’s been a wild ride…and when (and if) it settled, I realized that I missed the part where I shared it all with the very few but wonderful readers of my blog. So assuming anyone whoever read this are still out there…Squaregirl is now a Squaremama, but still here…older...and maybe, hopefully a little wiser.

SquareToddler

Because...

1) I'm getting lazy

2) I'm developing a tendency to replace words with pictures (as I'm getting lazy as you just read)

3) SquareSis #2 has somehow located and ressurected old family photos which she is sharing with all of us Squares

Here is proof that...

1) I actually have always had my head stuck in a book as I claimed

2) I avoid, and always have avoided posing for the camera. Unlike Squaresis #2, who is obviously the ham of the Squares.

Oh, and yes, I spent a majority of my childhood nekkid...whatevver, You do see that I am in a cage afterall don't you?

Happy New Year!

365 days ago, as I walked out of my apartment to see the Rose Parade's New Years floats going by as they were being set up for the next day’s Rose Parade, I marveled at the blessings I have in my life. Not only do the New Years Day Parade floats, come to little-ole-me so I don’t have to wake up at the crack of dawn to walk a mile and a half to see the parade, but instead can sit in front of my fireplace and watch them on TV drinking hot chocolate, (you say “lazy”, I say “cozy”). Needless to say, 2006 indeed HAS been a year of so many blessings. So as this is as good a place as any to express my gratitude to the Universe and reflect on all the blessings I have received, I am listing some of the things I am so grateful for:

1. Welcoming my newest niece, Avery into the world, who kept us all on our toes by not allowing us to know weather she was going to be a girl or a boy throughout the three sonograms.
2. My new Civic. It’s so much less about the material possession than about the security and peace of mind it provides me in knowing that I can safely get to wherever I need to go.
3. Inheriting a whole new, loving, kind and amazing family (in addition to the one I already had).
4. Inheriting five other nephews and nieces who ran up to me on my birthday and gave me a card that AUNTIE A2 (Not because they know about this blog, but because my name begins with an “A”) with the gift of one of their biggest fireworks for me to light.
5. My first trip to Hawaii, which after all the hype, didn’t disappoint.
6. Being able to work with the most amazing, caring, appreciative clients and families and seeing how much they are all changing and growing.
7. Marrying an amazing man who loves and supports me unconditionally…I couldn’t have done it otherwise, as my eccentricities can be quite challenging, I’m sure.
8. More material gifts that I could have ever imagined receiving or needing.


But I think one of the most amazing blessing I received this year, has been the understanding that I have always had everything I have always needed within myself and there is nothing external that I need to make me happy, because true happiness and joy comes from within…and to think, years and years of watching The Wizard of Oz and it took me nearly 33 years to figure that out!

Happy New Year Everyone! My 2007 be filled with blessings and ruby slippers for everyone, everywhere!

Christmas with the Squares...

Hey, if a picture is worth a thousand words, it's as if I just typed over 5,000 words!!